Monday, May 16, 2016

She Is Amazing!

In my post from earlier, I related the events that took place by text last Thursday between Miss F and myself.  I couldn't help but wonder how things would be when we both got home from work and were immediately immersed in the mild chaos of our home life with our three beautiful daughters.

As soon as we both got home Miss F reminded me that our eldest had a piano lessen in 30 minutes and that She would be leaving in a few minutes to take her.  She then said, "Why don't you come with us?".  I questioned Her as to "why" and she said "Just come with us." so I did. As soon as we dropped off our daughter at her lesson Miss F said, "Come on. We're going to get a pedicure!".  I was totally caught by surprise.  I've never had a pedicure!  I know what some of you are thinking out there, "What?? You're a sissy and you've never had a pedicure?!".  Well it's true.  In my journey as Coco there are certain things that I just don't push because, as I mentioned in my previous post, Coco is still growing into our relationship, and I know it's best to move at Miss F's pace. We've talked about me getting a pedicure in the past, but it hadn't happened yet. Until today.

I asked Her, "Are you sure?".  She said "Yes. Why? Don't you want one?" with a sly smile on Her face. She knew the answer to that!  So off we went to the nail salon.

It was a wonderful experience.  We went to the place She usually goes to, which has all Vietnamese people working there.  She introduced me to her manicurist named Minh, and to her helper, and the pedicures commenced.  I loved it!  It was like we were girlfriends having pedicures together.  We were talking, laughing and smiling the whole time.  She instructed my manicurist to give me a clear polish when the time came, which I was fine with.  Don't get me wrong, I would have loved something is a nice sissy pink or red, but that day will come...I'm sure.

After mine were done Miss F told me to go pick up our daughter and drop her off at her friend's house, because She was also having a manicure done.  So off I went, and returned about 25 minutes later.  She was not quite done, so I went ahead and paid and sat and waited for Her in the waiting are.
About 10 minutes later She met me in the waiting area with Her manicurist accompanying Her.  I thanked them for a wonderful experience and her manicurist said "So, I'll see you both in 2 weeks. Right?" Miss F replied, "Oh yes. We can't let his feet get in that condition anymore!" and laughed. Then the manicurist said something to me that surprised me. She said "Okay. You cook dinner tonight. We can't have your wife's nails ruined from making dinner. Okay?" I was about to reply and say "Yes" but Miss F quickly interjected, "Oh, you don't have to worry about that Minh! Like I told you, he does all of that anyway. He likes being my maid!".  I was speechless.  Minh giggled along with my wife while I blushed and smiled, trying to play it off.  Then off we went...home...where my maid duties awaited.
She is amazing!  :)

Revelations and Realizations

As my last post mentioned I was going through a bit of a "rough patch" with Miss F and "Coco" was being affected by it the most.  This isn't the first time it has happened, and I'm not sure it will be the last, but like all relationships there are ups and downs and you just have to work through them.

I knew Miss F was feeling bad about how things were affecting me.  I wasn't trying to make Her feel badThat was the last thing I wanted.  But Coco has been a part of our relationship for several years now and She has come to realize that my being is Coco is not just some kind of "fetish" or activity that I like to only partake in occasionally.  She has come to realize it is much more than that, which I think is part of why we go through these little rough patches once or twice a year.  Remember, for the first 15 years of our marriage things were very "vanilla" for lack of a better term. There was very light kinky play in the bedroom once in a blue moon, but nothing more than that.  When Coco was born into our marriage Miss F had no idea how much Coco was going to be a part of "us".  It's been a very challenging thing for Her, to not only accept, but there's been a lot of learning as well.  She still doesn't quite understand how my sexual desires have changed now that I'm much more "fem", but She's trying and is beginning to grasp things better.

But last Thursday, while we were both at work and sending some texts back and forth, it was evident that She wanted Coco back.  The first thing was a text She sent saying, "Just be Coco. I know it's who you are. I understand". That hit me like a a good way though.  This was the first time She ever acknowledged how much Coco really is a part of me, and She said it in a very encouraging and loving context.  But at the same time it really made me realize how much I "am" Coco and that I can't imagine her not existing in my me.  It was a profound moment in our relationship, but very positive.

The second thing that happened also occurred while we were texting.  I asked Miss F, "What do you like most about me being Coco?".  She answered, "I love how Coco treats me like a Queen and is so eager to do anything to make me happy".  I replied back, "I don't do that when I'm not Coco?".  She said "Yes, you do. But it's not the same. Coco really makes me feel like a Queen and I love it".

This was another monumental moment in our relationship.  Miss F knows I love being submissive to Her, but as Coco I am even more submissive.  It's because the fem side of me does view Her more as a Queen.  I have the utmost respect for Her from a "feminine" side, and as I become more feminine that respect and admiration grown more and more.  But when She outwardly told me this it was the first time ever that She admitted that She loves being in the Dominant role.  I think it's taken Her this long to "accept" it within Herself that it's OK to be the Dominant one in our relationship.  Needless to say, our exchange left me on cloud nine for the remainder of the day...and I'm still there now :)


Wednesday, May 4, 2016

The Picture Says It All

I think the below picture just about says it all...

From this...
To This  :(

I'm sorry for not posting.  Things are not going so well unfortunately.  This "rough patch" that I'm going through as Coco seems to have hit even more unstable terrain.

Suffice to say that Miss F seems to want to blame "Coco" for other issues within our relationship, so that part of me has been put into hibernation...AGAIN...for an undetermined length of time.  "Coco" will always be a part of me...more than I every realized before...but Miss F and our marriage is what is most important right now.  I love her dearly and she is my best friend in the whole world.  For now, at least, I must do what I have to do...even if it means sacrificing my needs as Coco for a while.

I'm around, and I'll definitely be back.  And I'll post again soon.  I am one of those that writes from my heart and I think it's good for other sissies, and hopefully others in similar situations/relationships, to see what some of us go through.'s not east.  But then again, does anything that's really important & valuable in life come easy?  :)

Wishing you all well.

*Hugs & Kisses*